Friday, January 29, 2010
I have made a conscious effort/ decision NOT to have sex until I am in a relationship, or atleast til I find someone I wont mind being in a relationship with. Even though this decision is becoming expensive (2 broken vibrators, 100+ batteries, 16 downloaded porn videos to my phone, and Rosetta stone because I'm gonna learn a new language to keep me busy) I am gonna stick with it because there is NOTHING like sex with someone you're comfortable with. You can do all of the lil sick things that goes on in your mind without feeling like you're being judged or you're gonna be the next topic of discussion. I don't need pictures, videos, panties or stories about me getting out on the evening news, so I have to wait. That and its a lot easier to do it often if you have a go to person without question. The problem with just a F&$K buddy is that at any given time either person can get somewhere AND at any given time one of the other people can change their line up. Then you have to start ALLLLL over again. You gotta reteach someone what you like, what you don't like, take your time in doing the real freaky shit... it's just too much. Plus no one spends that much time with a F&$K buddy to be able to do it any and everywhere. So... until I find someone permanent or could be (I say could be because I once I find that person I may need to test drive prior to signing the paper) I will have to find an indestructible vibrator with rechargeable batteries.